i·ron·ic
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I've struggled since June to figure out how to end this
blog. What started out as something funny and witty I was doing as a laugh with
my Grade 12 English class, collapsed like a black hole into an oblivion of
narcissism and petty boredom. And when you hate hanging out with yourself, you
know you gotta stop! So after a few months hiatus getting back into Top 40
music and eating bacon I'm feeling much more myself, and ready to finish up
those last few ignored blog posts from lent.
It's been quite the journey from me. On the one hand, I have
thoroughly enjoyed getting back into writing again, trying on a new skin and
walking that talk. It revealed a lot to me about how important writing is in my
life, and renewed my ambition of one day being properly published. On the
other, I have realized that at this time in history, for my generation, we are
consumed with an incredible destructive idea to our well being and general happiness.
We have bought into a lie that we have to have it all, and now.
Someone once asked me why I became a teacher. It's because I
have no idea what I am good at. And I don't say that in a
"tell-me-how-awesome-I-am" needy way. Truthfully, I enjoy many
things, but I don't especially excel at any of them. And I think that's ok. I
love learning new things, and I will read or watch just about anything you
recommend to me. That's not because I cannot think for myself, but because
that's the way that I (and if we're being honest, most of us) find out about
new things to pursue in our lives. I enjoy investing myself in something that
someone close to me is interested in. That's why I read The Hunger Games series
with my Grade 10 English class, and why I am building a Lego spaceship with my
3 year old son. I wouldn't have done these things on my own, but my life and my
relationships are far richer as a result of taking the time to try something new.
I may come back to blogging, but for now I'll be taking another break. My novel is whispering
to me again, so I will be returning to that for a while. One day, it may
even get published, even if it is just in e-book form for $1.99. So for now,
dear reader, this is farewell. But before I go, I want to challenge you to try something
new today. You will make mistakes, and people will criticize you, but there is
nothing more satisfying than the triumph after the struggle.
But like, whatev.
XoX Emma.
